Meadow's Mark

There's always more that I wish I knew Or do or did or want or need..... But in the end, the sands run out No matter how much you've accomplished Or didn't.... The only thing that last forever is the unknown. I wonder what that's like.....

Quarantine, Quarantine Please go away. Quarantine, Quarantine You cannot stay. Quarantine, Quarantine, Quarantine, Quarantine, Quarantine,Quarantine Please go away!!!! 🤯🤯🤯

Because I didn't appreciate my time in the outside world until they told me to stay home ______ 😫😫😫 ______ This "shutdown" has brought about a time of reflection. I have been looking at my goals and future plans. I already identified some things that I need to change but most importantly, I have appreciated the things I have already accomplished. The greatest part of this is the time I get to spend with my family 💜 ______ 🥰🥰🥰 ______ Ik this may be a trying to time for some but stress lowers the immune system. Now is the time for community and leaning on one another. This too shall pass && we'll need unity more than ever 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾 #staysafe #washyourhands #eatwell #meditate #stressless #BeHAPPY

I never take the time to "free write" on here, which is weird since that was my reasoning behind creating my blog. I have had so many things occur in 2020 already. From several deaths to loss of friendship/camaraderie to loss of jobs to loss of self (temporarily). The curve balls thrown at me made it very clear that I am not in the space where I thought I was. I am not at the level of strength that I portrayed. I am not as put together as I planned to be. I realized I haven't allowed myself to grieve or deal or just be. I wasn't accepting of any of the things I experienced. I wasn't learning any lessons. I just existed. Just went with the flow like a leaf in the air. Landing wherever. Most of the time it felt like I was perched on top of the highest point of the highest building in the world. Or maybe right on the edge of the highest cliff in the mountains. On a low day, it felt like I was being trampled on by every late commuter on their way to work. Ignoring the...

Because the fact that I did this almost 10 years ago to the day did nothing to prepare me for this time around. No amount of time and experience makes grieving any easier but it does help to have loved onea by your side while you're going through it. 10 years ago, I was numb. 4 years ago, I completely broke down and could barely take care of myself. This time gave me strength and balance. The ability to express my feelings AND still push through.....now that I've read this to him, I can post it about him. ______ 💙🇹🇹💙 ______ When I met him, he was about 52 years old with a full face and brown eyes. His hair always neatly cut. Who would have known it'd be love at first sight, although I'm not sure which one of us felt it first. Over the years, we grew together. We didn't spend a great deal of time together but I can't think of a time when he wasn't there or near or close or around. The man I knew never said much to me but he always smiled and said he l...