Meadow's Mark

You see my young son, I wasn't such a bright one. My mother had to force me to get the dictionary. Taught me to look for myself. But you, you came out bright and just as right. You taught yourself that the answer can be found. That life has no bounds. We're free and we do as we please. The day has yet to be seized. Carpe diem, that's the life! Investigate for yourself, yeah son, that's right!!

I wrack my brain with these books, trying to figure out which subject to tackle next. Which part of myself to expose to the world next. And then it comes to me! The chapter I should close next. Each one of my books is a piece of me. A very important part that I want to keep close to me but always want to send out into the world to grow and be independent and important. They're my babies......🤔🤔📚📚 

And then you died. And as much as I hate to admit it, I cried. But we know how this ends soo let's begin again. I just want to enjoy the ride. The highs and the lows As the tide comes and goes The adreline rush from the feelings this ride gives me As we teeter over the edge, waiting on the plunge You grab my hand the moment my lungs fill with air Only to squeeze a little tighter when I scream the whole way down Never admitting whether or not you got scared You're braver than me It's obvious as I stumble to keep up Running behind you as you walk towards the sun The ride is over and all I see is light Or the night Or your shadow Or your protection Something that makes the end a little easier. I'm sitting here, wiping away tears and fears Thinking back to the beginning. We know how it ends. We rode it til the wheels feel off And then I died.

I love how you trip over your own two feet. How you find a way to fall out of the seat.....after you've already gotten up but decided to try your luck. To see where things get you. Stretching beyond. Into the darkness without a fear in the world. I love how you leap over obstacles. And encourage others to do the same. To live life to the fullest. And promise to eliminate the pain. Or how you found your passion and express it daily. When you spend all your time laughing gaily. I love how you want to be loved and won't admit that you're scared to. How you have a shield soo big, you think no one can get to you. But it's a shield, not a wall. I simply walk around to see that frown and turn it upside down. To show you that the shield is a mirror and really, I am you. To know you. To show you. I love you. Too many times we shy away and close ourselves off because of certain things we see in others or even the world, not realizing that we're looking a...

I wrote some poetry about us but I couldn't tell you. The cuteness, the sweetness, the love, too much on the menu. Where would I start? What would I do? How would I ever be able to show you? There's soo many things I want you to see. Soo many things that you do for me. I smile when you hold my hand. Because I know one day you'll understand But right now, I'll just sit with you. Waiting for the right time to say all the things that make me say "If you only knew......."