Meadow's Mark

Because I didn't appreciate my time in the outside world until they told me to stay home ______ 😫😫😫 ______ This "shutdown" has brought about a time of reflection. I have been looking at my goals and future plans. I already identified some things that I need to change but most importantly, I have appreciated the things I have already accomplished. The greatest part of this is the time I get to spend with my family 💜 ______ 🥰🥰🥰 ______ Ik this may be a trying to time for some but stress lowers the immune system. Now is the time for community and leaning on one another. This too shall pass && we'll need unity more than ever 🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾 #staysafe #washyourhands #eatwell #meditate #stressless #BeHAPPY

I never take the time to "free write" on here, which is weird since that was my reasoning behind creating my blog. I have had so many things occur in 2020 already. From several deaths to loss of friendship/camaraderie to loss of jobs to loss of self (temporarily). The curve balls thrown at me made it very clear that I am not in the space where I thought I was. I am not at the level of strength that I portrayed. I am not as put together as I planned to be. I realized I haven't allowed myself to grieve or deal or just be. I wasn't accepting of any of the things I experienced. I wasn't learning any lessons. I just existed. Just went with the flow like a leaf in the air. Landing wherever. Most of the time it felt like I was perched on top of the highest point of the highest building in the world. Or maybe right on the edge of the highest cliff in the mountains. On a low day, it felt like I was being trampled on by every late commuter on their way to work. Ignoring the