Meadow's Mark

Because the fact that I did this almost 10 years ago to the day did nothing to prepare me for this time around. No amount of time and experience makes grieving any easier but it does help to have loved onea by your side while you're going through it. 10 years ago, I was numb. 4 years ago, I completely broke down and could barely take care of myself. This time gave me strength and balance. The ability to express my feelings AND still push through.....now that I've read this to him, I can post it about him. ______ 💙🇹🇹💙 ______ When I met him, he was about 52 years old with a full face and brown eyes. His hair always neatly cut. Who would have known it'd be love at first sight, although I'm not sure which one of us felt it first. Over the years, we grew together. We didn't spend a great deal of time together but I can't think of a time when he wasn't there or near or close or around. The man I knew never said much to me but he always smiled and said he l

What better way to immortalize you than to put you in the digital sky. Floating on a cloud, a trillion gigabytes away..... Or maybe you're only one kilobyte away and I don't know it. I can't see you because it won't load it. I release you to the cloud because you deserve to be with the highest..... Gone but never forgotten. Memories filled with love and warm hugs and cocoa puffs and smiles and tears of joy. And fluff and all kinds of happy stuff. All the things that clouds are made of, that's what you are now. I love you and I release you to the cloud.

He said "I don't care about that. I'd like to help you break the wall down." I smiled. Yea I'd like to let someone in. I think that'd be nice. I tried that before. I'm single now soo we see how that went. But it's not insecurity. It's security. Surety. I know what i want. What I deserve. I treat me the way I deserve to be treated. My walls have windows for my light to shine through. Don't come with shades. I'm liable to still blind you. I don't dim my light for others. There's no growth in that. But if you've come to plant, I can help you with that. Your seeds will flourish and grow in my yard. And maybe one day, these walls will come down. To make room for the garden we've built all around.